Sunday, May 6
Took me 2 months to finally update my blog. Needless to say, many things happened. My exams came and went by monotonously, and my life was totally squeezed dry.
In this 2 months, I lost the drive to do anything else much, and my life became someone else's. My schedule ran parallel to not my needs, but everyone else that had a piece of me. Through this few weeks, I finished up my projects, studied for my exams and tried my best to be everyone's friend and girlfriend, but failed terribly at it.
Tried to cater to my studies, friends, my tuitee, my hall and my mum, but I'm really tired. I tried my best to be there. I really did. And through this struggle to balance my time to fit everyone in my life, I kind of lost sight of everything and screwed everything up.
I feel really terrible. It's like I've finally accomplished nothing, even though I tried. In the end, I disappointed everyone. I couldn't find time to arrange a proper birthday celebration for my boyfriend. My friends haven't seen me for months, and I have missed countless of their 21st birthday parties. My mum called me every day for the past 3 weeks to get me to come home. My tuitee asks me if I could go more frequently since it's gonna be her exams soon. I feel so screwed up.
Seriously, I don't know and I can't comprehend where my life has gone to.
Posted by Isabelle at 1:02 am